2 jobs=busy busy lady!

things have changed for the better, started a new job Oct. 10 and I have to say working two jobs is kinda tiring but it feels great and learning to drive Big Daddy's car (which is a manual) is making me feel more "adult" like lol sounds kinda weird cause Im 25 but it feels great and Im actually proud of myself at the end of the day :)

at my new job Im getting along with everyone, 2 people the most they know who they are and I really am glad their there even though we dont work everyday together, the days we do its amazing XD
    

    On another note Im working on some new paintings, finally Im getting inspired again ;)

So yea life is perfect right now and I really hope n pray it stays this way!!

Until next time follow your heart and do what makes you happy

XXX

CRAZY BUZY THESE DAYS

wedding planning is going great, moved the date to next fall which I dont mind because.....Ive always anted an outside wedding in the woods :)

 work is going great as well, I never thought Id ever say this but I LOVE WHAT I DO and I wouldnt trade this job for anything!

I do miss being out on the road but Im loving having a home and Big Daddy off the road too!

XXX

clouded mind but I know itll be ok

  A lot of things are running through my mind lately, I mean Im getting married to my bestfriend at the end of this year, most nights I cant sleep because my mind wont stop and I dont know how to make it stop....Im doing the best I can to deal with everything that comes my way, weither it be relationship, family or friend problems I try to do the best I can to make everything right.

 Im human I make mistakes I disappoint people and myself sometimes but all I can do is push through with my head held high knowing maybe one day Ill change the way I am and actually let the walls down forever, even though I do trust some people well maybe I dont and its the most heaviest darkest feeling knowing and wanting to trust with all I have, I dont want to be jealous or have thoughts that make my day turn to night in a split second, Im so tired feeling alone emotionally.

  Don't get me wrong I love Big Daddy with all my heart hes my life and always will be, Ive never felt this way before and Im thankful for everything he does and well hes amazingly perfect for me haha he puts up with my crazy world and I wouldn't trade that or him for anything! I love him and I know hes the one man in the world that my world stops for and when Im walking down that aisle to him all my stress and worries will disappear because were in this together forever!

even though its stressful n crazy Im getting this done...

wedding planning is stressful enough without having only a couple months to plan it...its crazy busy I feel like my head is spinning and Im being pulled in so many directions

but the funny thing is I wouldn't trade these feelings for anything in the world right now.

Just knowing Im going to be walking down that aisle toward my bestfriend in the whole wide world is the greatest feeling Ive ever had!

Im working on my vows and Im thinking I wanna get the framed in an awesome frame so Big Daddy can have them with him when hes out over the road and look at them whenever he wants....but idk lol I dont want that to be cheesy

Anyway were having a peacock themed wedding I love peacocks I think there so beautiful, I wanted an outside wedding in the fall but there's no way Im gunna get that right now an thats ok cause I can wait for my dream wedding hey there's always our 5 years anniversary :)

until next time heres to wonderful thoughts and drama free wedding planning!!

XXX

August Challenge Magazine

Oh I almost forgot to share the poem I wrote for Big Daddy is in the August issue of The Challenge Magazine!!!

I was really surprised to find it there 2nd on the page

TOTALLY AWESOME 

XXX

BEEN AWHILE

wow been awhile since Ive blogged...

sitting here messing with an old bicycle bell LOVE IT 

so lets catch up :)

I went to Alfred Angelo Sat. Aug 11th to try on wedding dresses, let me say Ive got 2 that I really like!

Its crazy thinking about planning mine and Big Daddys wedding, but so awesome I cant wait til we pick the day we want to get married!

besides dreaming and semi planning our wedding Ive been busy putting in apps, I should be starting work sometime next week an IM SUPER STOKED!!!!!!!

OH Im also selling Avon now.

things are looking up and I look forward to the future!

XXX

movin up in life n' it feels so GOOD!!!

WOW!!! been super busy this last week, moved into the house, unpacking "btw I dont like" well still unpacking lol and I just got my CPR certification! YAY ME :) 

   I absolutely love all my roommates and defiantly dreading Big Daddy going back out on the road soon but I know this is what needs to happen. Hopefully he'll get a local job soon so he'll be able to come home every night to me

which reminds me.................WE'RE ENGAGED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YYYYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Im so happy and so very excited to become Big Daddy's wife one day :-D

to my future in-laws I love you guys so much and I'm so happy and proud to have had you guys in my life these past 5 years and super excited to have you as my mother n father in law and to Big Daddy's 2 brothers and sister you guys are amazing and I love you guys! 

so here's to planning a great wedding and even greater marriage to the man I've loved for so long 

I love you Big Daddy forever and always

XXX